Hair and gone :-)

I chopped it!

This was this afternoon

this was this evening

(Yes, I know I look exhausted...and my chin isn't really that pointy....is it?...I guess that's what happens when you're taking your own picture)

I feel like ME again....do I miss my hair, yes, but I've donated what was chopped off to Locks of Love: It's a bit short, but they accept anything now and sell it to other companies for money. So it's still going to a good cause and not in the garbage can.

I've also been working on A's 1st bday invites (which need to be mailed monday). We're going with an apple theme (I use the word loosely). We've got the whole menu planned out and as of now it's going to be on the small side (25-30 people), which is ok with me.

On the menu:

Drinks: Fresh pressed apple cider (our own) and Matt's pumpkin ale

Dessert: Apple Cupcakes and fresh made cider donuts (with cinnamon and sugar)

Dinner: Smoked ham, mashed potatoes, homemade apple sauce, roasted squash, pumpkin soup, and homemade biscuits

I am so excited about it!

The Deal...

Quite some time ago (actually I think like 3 years ago) Matt and I made a deal, that I wouldn't chop my hair off until our first born was a year old...we're 2 months away from that. Now I don't know what to do with it.

I love having shorter hair. It feels great, it looks great, and is so much easier to deal with. All I do with my long hair now is leave it up in a loose bun and sometimes I attempt to do something with it (aka leave it down), but no matter what, it's inevitable that it always looks messy (and not in that sexy way either).

Here's the problem: I like having long hair...even though I have no idea what to do with it and it always looks bad. It doesn't help that everyone is always aghast when I cut my hair, think Little Women, "Your hair! Your beautiful hair! Oh, Jo, how could you? Your one beauty." That's pretty much everyone's response.

Exhibit A & B

Part of the problem for me with long hair is the shape of my face...I have a very wide jaw, which only gets accentuated even more by having long hair, because in spite of however many layers I have in it, there is never enough body at the top of my head to balance it out. The only time it does is when it's cut short.

Of course, Matt likes my hair long and curly...but it curls better when it's short, when it's long it's kind of blah on top and just poofs on the top and sometimes it curls. Humidity makes it curlier, but it also makes it frizzy...winter just makes it poofy because the dryness in the air just makes it like Hermione's.

Why is this such a big issue? Because on October 16th we're heading to NYC for Ave's 1 year photos with Rachel and her sister (who's doing our pictures), in Central Park. I loved the pictures that Rachel took of us in May, but in every picture (which is so not her fault) my hair is blah. It looks like I didn't know what to do with it...which I don't.

So....
*Yes, cut my hair

*No, don't cut your hair

If your vote is no, don't cut your hair, then tell me what the heck to do with it for our family pictures!

The hair is the richest ornament of women. ~Martin Luther

I did get my haircut today, and here it is....
It's not style quite the way I would do it, but it's shorter and it's highlighted. The highlight isn't very noticeable because it's not too far off from my natural highlight. My hair was rather dark from the winter, and this just lightens it up a bit.

I do like my hair this length, because it balances out my jaw a lot more...my head doesn't look so huge. Hopefully it'll look even smaller once I lose some weight! Matt's not too keen on this length...he preferred it when it was down to my waist...MEN! But he does like it...I even got told I looked gorgeous! ;-)

"Everybody likes to go their own way--to choose their own time and manner of devotion." Jane Austen

So much! Matt went to the car auction today: YAY! He came home with a car. It's a 2000 Dodge Neon. It's got some problems (needs a new muffler and the door latches stick). For $1700 with tax, we can't complain! Even if we only get a couple of years out of it, it's good.

No sign of my coworker on here lately. I was hoping she would at least read my last post. As of right now I'm not planning on changing my blog. If I see that she's coming back frequently I may do something.

On another tangent: I'm fat. My scale hates me more than it ever has in MY LIFE! The summer before we were married I weighed 165 (I'm 5'5"). When we got married I weighed 155. Two and a half years later: I weigh 187...an ALL TIME HIGH for me. Last summer I tried First Place (Christian weightloss) and went from 184 to 175. In January I was back up to 184. I went to the gym 5 days a week (40-60 minutes) and was eating really healthy, I lost two pounds.

I've since gained that plus 5 back. I just found out from our Doctor's office that they're holding a free seminar about medifast. Being that I don't lose very much weight when I try hard for several months. I'm thinking of giving it a shot. Especially since I'll be doing all the drug protocol for our IUI in August. I'd really rather not start at 190 for that. Plus I feel that I have a better shot of things working if I'm at a healthy weight. My goal is to get down to at least 155.

I need to email our RE. Over the course of trying I've noticed that I ovulate later and later: Not sure why. The doctors don't see anything in my tests/workup to suggest it's an issue. I kind of think that it may be from being overweight. I just feel like my weight is becoming such a heavy burden (pun intended). I hate how I feel, that my boobs hit my stomach when I sit, that my arms don't rest at my sides because of my fat. I just feel disgusting. I also hate that with our IF I'd be worried that my weight could affect the success/failure of our having kids.

I know these things (meal/diet plans) are fickle and that one doesn't always lose weight or if one does, they may gain it back. I do plan on getting back to the gym in addition. I'm hoping that Medifast diet will get me jump started, energy etc. Wish me luck!

I think I've decided on a haircut. A bob, with lots of layers. I'm also having it highlighted. My natural highlights are red/gold, so I'll probably go with something along those lines, just to punch it up a bit...maybe a little more dramatic.

OH! We also worked on our bookcase this past weekend. I'm hoping to get the whole thing sanded and possibly stained this coming weekend (all while having a garage sale). Here it is so far: