Tuesday, September 16

"The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust;" ~ Ps 18.1-2

I haven't tested yet. It's not because I have such wonderful self control, but because I am scared to near-death that it is going to be negative. Even though I know it won't be the end of the world. I am scared to see only one line on that test.

Matt and I deliberated last night (we both feel the same about testing) and I think I am going to test before we drive the two hours to the RE on Thursday morning. It's just hard to believe that this could have worked...the first time...just one shot.

Two years ago I bought a book for Matt: The Expectant Father. It's been sitting in my nightstand ever since, just waiting to give it to him, it's still in the original shipping envelope, along with a card that I bought for him, "To the daddy to be". I never thought it would be sitting there over 2 years later.

In the mean time I am over analyzing every little thing. I've had continual cramping which seems to move throughout my lower abdomen and fluctuate in it's intensity. I'm peeing almost every 1-2 hours and I'm tired.

I'm still chalking it up to the progest.erone. Which, don't get me started on that! The rest is way TMI and if you don't read on I COMPLETELY understand.
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These suppositories are disgusting! I think I'd rather do the PIO shots. I wake up in the morning and the crotch of my pjs are SOAKED! It looks like I wet myself. Supposedly the suppositories are progesterone suspended in gel...well the whole thing doesn't get absorbed, just the progesterone and then the water/gel is left to drain out. It's disgusting.

The other thing with these is yeast infections. I have chronic yeast infections and continually battle them through a holistic regimine of mega acidophilus.

Saturday night I felt very itchy and uncomfortable (still do today), after thoroughly washing my hands I put my finger up inside and I felt this goopy lump. I pull my finger out and it's this huge lump (the size of a large cotton ball) of nastiness...it's off-white, green-ish-blue, and slightly yellow. While I don't think it's a yeast infection I'm sure it's some other kind of infection: LOVELY!

4 comments:

KandiB said...

This is such a tough, tough time. Those moments right before a beta can just drive a person nuts. You're truly in my thoughts and prayers. Having been through many, many, IUI's, I truly hope this is your first and only one. Blessings.

Kymberli said...

If you're already prone to yeast infections, I wonder if your RE couldn't go ahead and put you on PIO instead? I hate the suppositories, too, but the newer, capsule-type suppositories are WAY better than the waxy, B-52 bomber-sized bullets I had to use a few years ago. I'm hoping and praying that you'll get to give Matt the book in a couple of days!

annacyclopedia said...

I have another holistic remedy for yeast infections. It's horrible but it really works - grapefruit seed extract. I think you can get it in capsules but my naturopath recommended the liquid cause she says it works better. It's about the bitterest thing on the earth - I put 10 drops in a shot glass of juice and stir it up really well, and then down the hatch. Followed quickly by another shooter of juice to try to get rid of the taste. It's yucky but I totally swear by it now when the yeasties get nasty and the acidophilus isn't quite doing the trick.

Good luck with that part.

And of course extra super powerful good luck tomorrow. I hope that book gets out of your nightstand this week! I'm keeping you in my prayers as always...

~Jess said...

I've never heard of grapefruit seed extract....I will definitely be looking into that!

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