"The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust;" ~ Ps 18.1-2

I haven't tested yet. It's not because I have such wonderful self control, but because I am scared to near-death that it is going to be negative. Even though I know it won't be the end of the world. I am scared to see only one line on that test.

Matt and I deliberated last night (we both feel the same about testing) and I think I am going to test before we drive the two hours to the RE on Thursday morning. It's just hard to believe that this could have worked...the first time...just one shot.

Two years ago I bought a book for Matt: The Expectant Father. It's been sitting in my nightstand ever since, just waiting to give it to him, it's still in the original shipping envelope, along with a card that I bought for him, "To the daddy to be". I never thought it would be sitting there over 2 years later.

In the mean time I am over analyzing every little thing. I've had continual cramping which seems to move throughout my lower abdomen and fluctuate in it's intensity. I'm peeing almost every 1-2 hours and I'm tired.

I'm still chalking it up to the progest.erone. Which, don't get me started on that! The rest is way TMI and if you don't read on I COMPLETELY understand.
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These suppositories are disgusting! I think I'd rather do the PIO shots. I wake up in the morning and the crotch of my pjs are SOAKED! It looks like I wet myself. Supposedly the suppositories are progesterone suspended in gel...well the whole thing doesn't get absorbed, just the progesterone and then the water/gel is left to drain out. It's disgusting.

The other thing with these is yeast infections. I have chronic yeast infections and continually battle them through a holistic regimine of mega acidophilus.

Saturday night I felt very itchy and uncomfortable (still do today), after thoroughly washing my hands I put my finger up inside and I felt this goopy lump. I pull my finger out and it's this huge lump (the size of a large cotton ball) of nastiness...it's off-white, green-ish-blue, and slightly yellow. While I don't think it's a yeast infection I'm sure it's some other kind of infection: LOVELY!