One year ago today....

I got up at 5:30, so that I could drive the 45 minutes to the hospital to have my blood drawn for our 3rd cycle's beta. I didn't bother testing that morning, because the test I had taken on Feb 14 was a resounding "Not Pregnant", and the one I had taken on the 13th was an evap line, and I didn't test on the 15th. I just couldn't stand to look at another BFN.

I got to work, went about my day...called the home to check our voicemail and there was a message I listened to the first half of it (I hadn't even left my desk to listen to it), but someone came in my office so I hung up. I went down to the conference room and listened to the whole message...it was the typical "Business as usual" voicemail. "This is Greta calling from CNY in regards to your blood work from this morning (in her usual dour voice): Congratulations you're pregnant. Give us a call and we'll set up your first ultrasound". WHAT?! I had to listen to it a couple more times, because I so did NOT believe what she had said.

I remember going to the bathroom and looking at myself in the mirror and thinking "HOLY F*CK! I'm PREGNANT! NO WAY!" I immediately walked out of the bathroom and back into the conference room to call the RE's office and the IF med company. I had just gotten off the phone with all but the RE's office an hour early placing orders for our next cycle: I felt like the biggest fool, "Hi....I just placed an order an hour ago. I'd like to cancel it. Yea, I'm pregnant".

I have to say, while 2009 started out pretty crappy...it ended up being the best year of my life. Was it perfect? Nope, but I got pregnant and became a mom.

Avelyn, I can't tell you how much mommy and daddy love you: How beyond surprised and ecstatic we were when the doctor called and told us we were finally pregnant: There are no words. You were worth all the tears, all the pain, all the waiting and worries and surgeries. We can't imagine our life without you!